Restart! That is what I am going to try. Let me explain. Sunday night we had the Flatland Oasis ser­vice. Pastor Bart sum­ma­rized the past ser­mon series “My Three” dur­ing his ser­mon and empha­sized the fif­teen spir­i­tu­al dis­ci­plines that were a focal point of the series (see the oth­er It’s Monday post for a com­plete overview). Pastor said it is very easy to slip up and stop prac­tic­ing those dis­ci­plines. But he also said, “Restart!”

Pastor said some­thing that at first I want­ed to argue with but I am hav­ing to now argue with myself instead. He said just as easy as it is to stop fol­low­ing the dis­ci­plines one can start up again, to restart. Now I was think­ing more gen­er­al, not just about the spir­i­tu­al dis­ci­plines but also about all the oth­er goals I have includ­ing exer­cise, blog­ging, and pho­tog­ra­phy.

Now, I ini­tial­ly was think­ing, “Discipline in and of itself is dif­fi­cult but it is even hard­er to get start­ed.” And I still think it is hard but pas­tor said some­thing that took some time to sink in — “just start.”

One of my most favorite books is The Lord of the Rings by J. R. R. Tolkien. One pas­sage that I have always liked is where Frodo quotes Bilbo. “‘It’s a dan­ger­ous busi­ness, Frodo, going out your door. You step into the Road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there is no know­ing where you might be swept off to.’”

That first step is dif­fi­cult. Sometimes we just don’t want to step out­side our doors. It is scary out there. Its com­fort­able to  just stay inside, cozy up the fire and ignore that we are going no where in life. In some ways, I guess I felt pas­tor was say­ing to us tonight, “Take a mul­li­gan, it’s ok. We all need a restart every so often”

In some ways, I feel as if I have failed mis­er­ably already from what I had deter­mined to do and stat­ed in just a few posts ago. One can feel, “whats the use, I will just fail again” but the old say­ing that the biggest fail­ure is to fail to do any­thing is so very true. Yes, I will fal­ter, I will fall, but I also know that God is right there with me to help pick me up, dust me off, and get start­ed again. Pastor is so very right. When we start wan­der­ing the wrong way, He is right there to take us back on the right path. Even if we try to run from Him, He chas­es after us.

I am deter­mined to restart, to take that first step once again and trust God to sweep me off to where He wants me to go. It is a dan­ger­ous thing. God may sweep me off to places I would not think of going. He may sweep me along the path that I believed He was call­ing me to fol­low and I blogged about in an ear­li­er post. But no mat­ter what His will is for me, I have to take that first step. And so here I go…


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